The beginning of Something new.

Pouring my emotions on this page

Trying to get your eyes to find,

The hidden message within, that im trying to provide.

Distance, means so little

Because my emotions and you, mean so much more.

& even though were drowning i'll lead our way to shore.

They'll try to put you under the influence 

by getting you high, filling your mind with lies.

But im telling you we have no limit

our high is beyond these skies.

I cant determine my future because tomorrow isn't promised, 

But as my future approaches, I can only remain honest.

Honest to you and myself, because today determines tomorrow. 

I will lead you not towards hunger and pain causing days of endless rain

but towards the happiness you never completely framed.

I can be your god, Just believe I will not mislead.

We will stick together you'll be my butter and i'll be your cheese.
Sometimes you have to make everyone else fade into the background, 
If not then look at whats going on now.
I may not completely understand, 
But here I am still offering not only my heart but my hand.
& when it comes to our future im pretty sure god has it planned.
So here's what im trying to say.
The rain cant wash me away, 
The sun cant shine to bright
Im willing to stay on this flight cause every emotion you give off
is only right &
Even though its dark we'll find our way to the light.
Stress comes too, but this is something were gonna get through
Just smile even when you dont want too, 
Im telling you this is the beginning of something new.


P.s You have to learn to forget somethings it doesnt mean your weak it means your strong 
& because you've found flaws in that thing, your only trying to get around that flaw to make 
that situation better. - S P E N C E R.

Im just saying

Look no one can tell you who to be with, who to like, or who to fall in love with,
People cant tell you whats right or wrong, because everyone is entitled to there own
opinion regardless. People are gonna believe what they wanna believe at the
end of the day so why waste your breath sometimes?
I mean, Im just saying.

S p e n c  e  r

Life is too short so kiss slowly, forgive quickly, forget the past, but remember what it taught you...the U.S. constitution doesn’t gurantee happiness, only the PURSUIT of it...yu have to catch up with the rest of it yourself..XXII

Happy New Year Welcome 2010

As i reflect on 2009,

I've realized i made mistakes had doubts 

got hurt, and there were people who was a waste of time

as well as worth it.

I realized things happen for a reason even if we 

dont know what that reason may be, good or bad.

However, Just because its a new year it doesnt mean theres a new me

I will remain the same me, but theres always room for improvement because

there's flaws in everything, whether we notice it or not. 

Same book, different chapter.

Same people, with more to come and go.

Starting the new year off with a special some one and hopefully we 

stick it out, beyond the years yet to come. 

But Happy new year everyone and may god open new doors and opportunities for everyone.

P.S My writing will improve I can guarantee that !  

Alone in this world

Your words are sins that leave me feeling lethal

Propane Strong, and the smell eats you

But will it get through?

All of a sudden i feel i dont need you

I tried to be kind like Ghandi did to his peoples

You took advantage of what was at heart instead of mind,

I dont know what to call your kind

Confronting, conversation, impatient thats you

Im feeling consequencial, never suicidal

I should of examined this picture

It feels like world war one

drained and unfortunaly insane but i cant complain

I got the pieces that remain

Raged and eager in pain

Reality wont ever be the same.

As I reminisce its a shame and your name dont deserve a frame

Your existance damaged my brainI try to concentrate but your name is infratuated

And its exausting me, I thought I walked on this road cautiously

I should of stopped when the signs warned me

And now im alone in this world

Ps. I entered this poem in a poetry jam =]. This a throw back

Suicidal

The crowd surrounds me as they realize my physical mistake.
Im sitting in an oven and they're letting me bake.
I was warned but my head was to far out
and now im lost tossing about.
Watch those around you is what several say
I walk with no caution, going the wrong way.
Situations changing and the picture is too
& now im unaware of what to do
True colors show when you have no air to grasp
And instead of being first you end up last.
Life moves to fast and time sometimes move slow
So when it comes to certain people you just have to let go
Instead of making things work 
You just gotta let it flow
But ever think about in order to flow
It's yourself you gotta let go.


P.s This is how some people feel before they become suicidal. Im not suicidal dont get the wrong impression its just writing from a different perspective. However, you have the learn to rise about the negatives in order to see a better tomorrow.

Struggles

There are struggles yet to overcome
and when it comes to mistakes
We'll make more then one
Never let struggles serve as a guide
because they'll put you in a disguise and 
allow those to harshly describe.
Don't allow them to forsee because they'll
begin to make you question who you should be
A friend yet a enemy
that you shall not think of letting in


P.s As they say life is like a roller coaster but people fail to realize that even though you drop you'll eventually come back up.- Spencer

I am me

Life is a beautiful thing when you dare to be yourself. Especially when you're transitioning from fitting in to standing out from everyone else.-Spencer

12/14/08-09

Countless days I could almost remember
Being in your arms or you in mine.
What separated us is time.
You wanted things your way
and I wanted things to be mine
But we happened to come to the conclusion
everything would be fine.
Forever, we said it would be
You and me eternally but 
Rough times came as you played games
Bringing me to my pain and before we knew
things weren't the same.
We shxtted on each other but still we came back
Releasing secrets and made me recap
I promised i wouldn't go back
I never knew broken hearts could exist 
until i met you and its crazy what words really do
Smiles and laughs we had to
but how you hurt me & i would still go back
Thats how i knew i really loved you
My tears could have created oceans
I knew I was open
You're the reason why my heart is frozen 
But still i admired,
I admired your flaws which shall never expire
causing a selfush desire
Well i had to burn out this fire
bcause my heart had been invaded 
In october the month we seperated.


Ps. This was written on 12/14/09 b.c me & my ex would have made a year but this goes to show that things happen. People come and go, & there;s gonna be more then one time people get hurt.

=]

After a day of sitting down over analyzing and rethinking things over
I feel so much better.
Thanks for everyone who encouraged me to do better. 
& think about reconsidering. 
I wasnt fooling no one but myself because I dont ever give up ! 
Ever, because failure is not ever a option ! 
Also ones failure is anothers success with that bein said
Im pretty sure you guys get the point =].
I love life and the few in it. 


P.s Live, Laugh, Love<--If you choose but preferably like lol =]. & as I always say life is what you make it and people are what yu allow them to become