Self Evaluation

Have I become to cold & stubborn to realize what already remains
rather then what i want & who I want to be here
Here I am walking around with not a care in the world.
Showing my ass because I got hurt by 1 to many girls
Always looking back and comparing it to now,
& wasnt I the one saying  you cant move forward looking in the rear view?
I've become so contradicting but yet within it all at least one person
makes it their business or place to love me beyond that
Have I forgotten how to appreciate whats here, and what its worth
because I've become so high maintanence that i think im too good for anybody
Yet I question my capabilities,

Have I become to soft because when it comes to a significant other I

can never show no remorse, This is a emotional course

& i tend to feel its my power of self I need to reinforce

I know my heart has only become slightly cold becuase I allowed it too

but im owning up  the best thing a person can do,

You see im selfish, & i like things my way & if not i'll raise hell

Cause i feel if im in control our time will be served well

Im demanding but sensitive too, so do one thing wrong

& you'll be able to see I have feelings too

You know someone said ill be old & lonely

But i'd rather be that then to be fake & phony.

Unlike many I can admit its alot with myself I need to work on

But until then I need to remain strong and realize when im wrong