Self Evaluation

Have I become to cold & stubborn to realize what already remains
rather then what i want & who I want to be here
Here I am walking around with not a care in the world.
Showing my ass because I got hurt by 1 to many girls
Always looking back and comparing it to now,
& wasnt I the one saying  you cant move forward looking in the rear view?
I've become so contradicting but yet within it all at least one person
makes it their business or place to love me beyond that
Have I forgotten how to appreciate whats here, and what its worth
because I've become so high maintanence that i think im too good for anybody
Yet I question my capabilities,

Have I become to soft because when it comes to a significant other I

can never show no remorse, This is a emotional course

& i tend to feel its my power of self I need to reinforce

I know my heart has only become slightly cold becuase I allowed it too

but im owning up  the best thing a person can do,

You see im selfish, & i like things my way & if not i'll raise hell

Cause i feel if im in control our time will be served well

Im demanding but sensitive too, so do one thing wrong

& you'll be able to see I have feelings too

You know someone said ill be old & lonely

But i'd rather be that then to be fake & phony.

Unlike many I can admit its alot with myself I need to work on

But until then I need to remain strong and realize when im wrong

Prada 6-9-10 this is her at 1 month

2010 Graduate

Love through Nature

I hate when it rains but yet it creates a beautiful scenery


One similiar to reality

you see like obstacles are represented by the remains

created and pushed by the rain

The winds represents the intensity

felt within an incompatible yet compatible couple

Complicated huh?

A fear rises up in me due to the powerful relationship

Thunder & lightening creates with each other

A jealousy urge wishing I had that type of communication

and relationship with my significant other,

as thunder and lightening have with each other

But in all reality it isnt that easy.

The winds blow and its rage tend to push me away

but still im able to flow with it

Currency slows down as i steadily try to catch my pace,

because obviously im running to come in first place to win this race

but there's always that one thing that holds me back

& i begin losing the race

Due to that gap,

It reminds me of that road sign that represents slippery when wet

Caution, do not enter, slow down, stop, or even go

You see how emotions and natures natural occurances connect?

Life, love, and natural disasters all move in a cycle like Karma

What goes around eventually comes back around

& what goes up, must come down