Gods Gift

& Tattoos are permanent art on the body.  God's Gift

Florida State Lady Star

& no matter what they wont catch me slipping. I will always be on my feet ready to move. Lets get it

Cant help it

Sometimes you cant help how you feel about someone. Chances are risky and sometimes you gotta take then by jumping off that bridge

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There's a message in the things you do and say

Your complicated in your own ways

But yet I love it

At first I thought nothing of it

But its so close i can almost hug it

Your actions come off louder then you think

Well at least to me

It makes me think of all possibilities

But the problem is what if you don't see what I do

But time will play out if things is true

But until then I'll keep my eye on you

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Self Evaluation

Have I become to cold & stubborn to realize what already remains
rather then what i want & who I want to be here
Here I am walking around with not a care in the world.
Showing my ass because I got hurt by 1 to many girls
Always looking back and comparing it to now,
& wasnt I the one saying  you cant move forward looking in the rear view?
I've become so contradicting but yet within it all at least one person
makes it their business or place to love me beyond that
Have I forgotten how to appreciate whats here, and what its worth
because I've become so high maintanence that i think im too good for anybody
Yet I question my capabilities,

Have I become to soft because when it comes to a significant other I

can never show no remorse, This is a emotional course

& i tend to feel its my power of self I need to reinforce

I know my heart has only become slightly cold becuase I allowed it too

but im owning up  the best thing a person can do,

You see im selfish, & i like things my way & if not i'll raise hell

Cause i feel if im in control our time will be served well

Im demanding but sensitive too, so do one thing wrong

& you'll be able to see I have feelings too

You know someone said ill be old & lonely

But i'd rather be that then to be fake & phony.

Unlike many I can admit its alot with myself I need to work on

But until then I need to remain strong and realize when im wrong

Prada 6-9-10 this is her at 1 month

2010 Graduate

Love through Nature

I hate when it rains but yet it creates a beautiful scenery


One similiar to reality

you see like obstacles are represented by the remains

created and pushed by the rain

The winds represents the intensity

felt within an incompatible yet compatible couple

Complicated huh?

A fear rises up in me due to the powerful relationship

Thunder & lightening creates with each other

A jealousy urge wishing I had that type of communication

and relationship with my significant other,

as thunder and lightening have with each other

But in all reality it isnt that easy.

The winds blow and its rage tend to push me away

but still im able to flow with it

Currency slows down as i steadily try to catch my pace,

because obviously im running to come in first place to win this race

but there's always that one thing that holds me back

& i begin losing the race

Due to that gap,

It reminds me of that road sign that represents slippery when wet

Caution, do not enter, slow down, stop, or even go

You see how emotions and natures natural occurances connect?

Life, love, and natural disasters all move in a cycle like Karma

What goes around eventually comes back around

& what goes up, must come down

The mind is a dangerous tool

The mind is a dangerous tool, if you don't know that
try being in my shoes.


Dark shadows race once my eyes close,


the mind is a dangerous tool, is there anyone besides


me who knows?


When pain caresses the body rather then the hands


And your heart just crumbles up, further in


Smile, all you can do is smile


All you can do is smile because they won't know the difference


And there's a rare chance that you'll find somebody who


actually listens


How about those days when you cry but you can't understand why


But it's when you begin to sigh that the mind ends up keeping your


head high.


Destruction, and pain seems to get rid of it all,


And before you know it, blood begins to fall


Scars, bruises begins to find it's self a new home


Im telling you the mind is a dangerous tool


Specially when you're all alone.


Ever been under the influence for the first time


Everything from the past comes racing to your mind


Good, bad, which is all to life, and you begin to find


yourself in a predictment where one foot is in the present


and one is in the past


Struggle.


It's all a struggle, the mind causes you to put up a bubble.


When we think we know it all, because one did it before


we expect the next to, you see where pain and over


analysis lead you?


I wish I can say I'm not a victim


Cause if I do, then I would be lying


I've grown use to it all,


I've grown so familiar with it


pain no longer hurts, and though love trys to occupy my mind


It fails, because my mind refuses


and now you see how dangerous of a tool it is.


I was not ever weak, I've grown to become weak


And as i try to become a bit stronger


my words become faint, as I try to speak


I will not give up nor ever give in


Then I would be a failure, which shall never be a option


They'll really take advantage then


But it will stop as of now, I say my heasrt will bring it to an end


So listen and listen well


The mind is a dangerous tool, it will bring you to your hell


As long as you let it's negativity serve you well.

Catching Up

Well, hello there all bloggers,
I guess I been slacking on my post as well,
its been a minute, it's been a minute
Well nothing much is new with besides the fact I graduate in 2 weeks
I'll keep you all posted as much as I can, just been a little busy
Any busy person should know how that goes, busy with all this senior
buisness. Well see you all later =]

I feel like a poem

I feel like a poem,

Full of emotions colliding, to create a flawed masterpiece.


I feel like a rock, no emotion no feeling, just stone cold.


My mind, creates a tornado of thoughts, freely wandering


Free to destruct and destroy everything possible that comes in its way


Breaking down, those of the innocent and revealing those of the guilty,


And though this is a poem, can you feel me?


Im so dangerous, like the mind


Because the mind is a dangerous tool,


And though im not perfect I am still put up on a pedastool


I am a wandering pen, waiting to meet my paper, so I can free myself


Free myself from, the self destructive thoughts that over power my mellow state,


The thoughts dat causes my heart to race, yet slow down when I think of my mothers face.


You know, the thought and emotion of love, traps me in causing conflict with both


my mind & heart, making me feel incomplete when we are apart


My heart trys to keep peace, while my mind retaliates.


The further I go in, the more the walls seem to begin to collide,


& no matter how much I try, I always tend to hide.


The struggle tend to get harder and it turns into a situation of


Survival of the fittest.


I know im on someones hit list ,


Sometimes I feel myself falling further in the sand,


But its always my mom who sets out her hand, and


once again, I stand.


I feel like a poem


Full of emotions colliding to create a flawed masterpiece


But this masterpiece will not be complete


Until the death of me is reached.

What you helped me to become

I fell, no view, feeling, or sense

i opened my eyes to a dark room
cold walls and floors,
I screamed as loud as i can for as long as i can
And all i heard was echoes screaming back at me
I ran, I ran as fast as I can just to get no where
Right back in the same position, as before.
Cold room cold wall cold floors
I became so close with dark, that I no longer understood light
I gave in, I ran away to seek, what I no longer understood
And here I am now saying its all good
She gave me a hand, she gave me a shout, She turned the constant
feeling of cold inside out.
I turned my back, resisting to intake the good she could give,
not knowing its the best way to live.
I hated, i isolated,
I isolated myself from those who showed concern
I wasnt familiaR with the idea of a lesson being learned
I was on my knees, crying, begging,
And here i find myself closer to heaven
I prayed, i analyzed,
and now im thanking god, for my angel in disguise.
You helped lead, with out me even saying
& you helped me become familiar with the thought of praying.
You helped me see the light and the side of me
I havent before, So i wrote this poem to let you know
We are now ashore, no longer drowing anymore.
& im thankful, for the help advice and motivation
& For the heads up, you've become my inspiration

Its your flaws that I love

You're smile creates a world of broken promises


You're touch brings the feeling of pain

You're whisper creates a intimate hunger

& your every word creates a new world of wonder

You're laugh crawls under my skin, causing tension

But its intriguing that I love you even through all that i mention

I love your tone, it brings me to the mellow state

I love your smile, its full of flaws.

Your eyes relax upon me like the sun in the winter when im cold,

And through every flaw of yours you show our love wont ever fold

I love your whisper it clings llike the spider to the web,

Its the sheets to the bed,

and it creates every vivid and valid thought in my head.

Though its unpleasing, I find it very pleasing

Very interesting.

You got me holding on both hands,

Feet in the sand, so its easy to sink in.

You got me studying you like a mid term

You got me excited to see what i scored

So excited like a kid is when one is rewarded.

This is no rerun, this isnt recorded.

Your flaws,

Your flaws are so beautifully deminished

Like a boquet beautifully replinished

I could not ever despise you,

We learned to stick like glue,and now that i got you

I dont wanna lose you.

Love the only word thats truly emphasized throughout

So hear I am thanking you once more, for helping the negatives turn about.

& theres no obstacle or individual that can come in our way ,

Because our today is our future, which lies within tomorrow,

So heres my heart to keep, and treasure,

Cause im signing it over to you with pleasure.

& here's to your flaws and all that you become to me,

Because just like misery, happiness enjoys company.

I couldnt ever be more thankful, for you

cause ur my rare dove

And its your flaws that i Love

The problem is maybe Im doing to much,
Always giving my all but still its never enough.
You see these people never appreciate shxt
until its gone,
But when you decide to leave you considered dead wrong.
This is why I say, you cant always think with your heart
You gotta think with your mind, because people will
take it to their advantage because your being to kind

Its Just not that simple

When things are falling off
When life seems unfair
You walk around with your head down
&; still they dont care.

When your other is forcing you down a bit
You wanna walk out but yu cant quit.
The door is open waiting for you to walk out.
Waiting for pain to turn pleasure inside out.

When things change and theres rain
Consequence of struggle got you going in sane
Of course there will be pain, causing the feeling of change
& that feeling of doubt will secretly remain

You tell them things they wanna hear
& they'll think they see things clear,
but truth is they are no where near.

You'll pull off the smile because its one best disguise
But I'll be able to see the hidden pain within your eyes.
I will be the one who will understand
Bc even I say smile when you dont want to
But I understand its not that simple.

P.S I always use words and phrases to cheer me up knowing its not that simple yet I still find my way around
the complications. You just gotta find that feeling deep within you and better it.- Spencer

The beginning of Something new.

Pouring my emotions on this page

Trying to get your eyes to find,

The hidden message within, that im trying to provide.

Distance, means so little

Because my emotions and you, mean so much more.

& even though were drowning i'll lead our way to shore.

They'll try to put you under the influence 

by getting you high, filling your mind with lies.

But im telling you we have no limit

our high is beyond these skies.

I cant determine my future because tomorrow isn't promised, 

But as my future approaches, I can only remain honest.

Honest to you and myself, because today determines tomorrow. 

I will lead you not towards hunger and pain causing days of endless rain

but towards the happiness you never completely framed.

I can be your god, Just believe I will not mislead.

We will stick together you'll be my butter and i'll be your cheese.
Sometimes you have to make everyone else fade into the background, 
If not then look at whats going on now.
I may not completely understand, 
But here I am still offering not only my heart but my hand.
& when it comes to our future im pretty sure god has it planned.
So here's what im trying to say.
The rain cant wash me away, 
The sun cant shine to bright
Im willing to stay on this flight cause every emotion you give off
is only right &
Even though its dark we'll find our way to the light.
Stress comes too, but this is something were gonna get through
Just smile even when you dont want too, 
Im telling you this is the beginning of something new.


P.s You have to learn to forget somethings it doesnt mean your weak it means your strong 
& because you've found flaws in that thing, your only trying to get around that flaw to make 
that situation better. - S P E N C E R.

Im just saying

Look no one can tell you who to be with, who to like, or who to fall in love with,
People cant tell you whats right or wrong, because everyone is entitled to there own
opinion regardless. People are gonna believe what they wanna believe at the
end of the day so why waste your breath sometimes?
I mean, Im just saying.

S p e n c  e  r

Life is too short so kiss slowly, forgive quickly, forget the past, but remember what it taught you...the U.S. constitution doesn’t gurantee happiness, only the PURSUIT of it...yu have to catch up with the rest of it yourself..XXII

Happy New Year Welcome 2010

As i reflect on 2009,

I've realized i made mistakes had doubts 

got hurt, and there were people who was a waste of time

as well as worth it.

I realized things happen for a reason even if we 

dont know what that reason may be, good or bad.

However, Just because its a new year it doesnt mean theres a new me

I will remain the same me, but theres always room for improvement because

there's flaws in everything, whether we notice it or not. 

Same book, different chapter.

Same people, with more to come and go.

Starting the new year off with a special some one and hopefully we 

stick it out, beyond the years yet to come. 

But Happy new year everyone and may god open new doors and opportunities for everyone.

P.S My writing will improve I can guarantee that !