Some day I'll realize.

Chance, everyone always talks of chance including me 

If you dont take chance then one is less likely to see what could be. 

Chance, something i let slip away because instead of her 

you;re on my mind day to day.

The problem is my heart points one way 

whispering with yu is where it will stay.

Sometimes i want to go away, so you can see 

you cant always take advantage of me. 

It hurts me!

It hurts me to think about the past and we said forever we will last?

It hurts me to know that the one who loves me loves another the same way, 

but knowing this still i stay, 

and yu act as if im just some game you play

I dont want it to, but its on my mind up to this day. 

This pain is unpleasurable and I dont mean to throw it in your face 

but this shxt is something dat cant be erased.

I love you i swear i do 

its just hard to accept the fact and let it flow. 

but In my heart i know im nieve and eventually i'll just have to let you go. 


P.s sometimes the strongest thing to do is let go even if you dont want to. Like marilyn monroe said 
its better to be unhappy alone rather then unhappy with someone.

I thought i loved you,
But i think i lied.
For every time i smiled
I also cried.
You made me happy 
Yet you made me sad.
Thought you were everything
But you remind me of sumone i had.
I thought you were different
But you proved me right.
You proved you're not worth the fight.
So im turning off this light and saying goodnight.

Mind & heart

You stole the spot light
You and her came to light
dimming my light.
I thought i was ready
My heart warned me
But i followed my mind
& its your hand i cant find.
You said forever
My heart said nothing last that long
I disobeyed and like a game 
I got played.
You made me want to run in my grave
At a early age.
But god sent me an angel
and i got saved
I was at the edge
Ready to jump off
Nobody would have considered
Its would be just another life loss.
I would have gave it all up
But whats anything without trust?

Lonely Assassin

Back where i started
Another dead end
Look at certain faces 
& I wana go further in
A detailed lie is always told
As you look further 
The truth unfolds
back to where fairy tales are told,
Back to where people dont care,
Back to where I turn
And see no body there
Careless days passing
For, I am the lonely assassin

Life.

Life aint no dream
You can just depend on
You come into this world
& quickly be gone.
We are challenged
We are confused,
We are hurt,'
We are abused
Abandoned and used.
Nobody ever said
"Its going to be easy"
Life is rough, but we manage to get through
Being perfect 
Is simply being imperfect.
Sometimes we feel living aint worth it'
But just know your on this earth for a purpose.


Ps. Dont let the negatives break or make you. Just let your dreams take you , and dont let no one stop you! 

Something to consider

In the end what we regret most are the chances we never took.

Random Thought

& people fail to realize. Life is what yu make it and people are what yu allow them to make themselves in your life. No one has control over your life & the decisions you guarentee yourself but you. Judgement shouldnt be anything. Who's real will accept you just the way you are. simple =]-

5 random things

1.Never trust a nigga saying trust me.
2.10% of life is decisions you make but 90% is how you react to them
3.Life is not complicated, its the people you allow in your life who makes it complicated.
4.Everything eventually comes to an end even life its self.
5.Why is the past called the past , when its always knocking at your door?

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& sometimes I just wish you would understand
I may not be the best part of life but just take my hand
Im not perfect and theres things yet to see
However our hearts even says we're meant to be.
No matter how much we push away
Never admitting to wanting to stay
Because we're trying so hard to go our own way.
Things only become so much more complicated
& its so painful, i really hate it.
Damn, I just wish we never dated.
Maybe its not right to feel that way
But what more do you leave me to say?
I wish it was so easy and simple
But i guess its not
Tryna be on my lil wayne status so you can be something i forgot.
Somethings are really hard to cope with
I cant believe you puttin me through this shxt.
I dont get it!
Everything is right but you claim its wrong
But i can no longer hold on
So im saying So long cause im gone.




P.s Never make someone a priority when your just an option. sometimes you have to sit back and observe the picture before you can actually get the frame.

Just a New York girl.

So just when everything is going good & im situated I get a call im coming back to Ny. I met alot of people within my two weeks of school. Literally the whole school knew me and of me. They called me "New York". Coach Wheeler really looked forward to having me this season but things happen, and I have no choice on whether I can stay or not. Regardless of what, Im going to make the best of what comes my way and enjoy my senior year in New York. I guess im just a Nw York girl.


P.s Things happen for a reason even if you dont know that reason.