5 random things

1.Never trust a nigga saying trust me.
2.10% of life is decisions you make but 90% is how you react to them
3.Life is not complicated, its the people you allow in your life who makes it complicated.
4.Everything eventually comes to an end even life its self.
5.Why is the past called the past , when its always knocking at your door?

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& sometimes I just wish you would understand
I may not be the best part of life but just take my hand
Im not perfect and theres things yet to see
However our hearts even says we're meant to be.
No matter how much we push away
Never admitting to wanting to stay
Because we're trying so hard to go our own way.
Things only become so much more complicated
& its so painful, i really hate it.
Damn, I just wish we never dated.
Maybe its not right to feel that way
But what more do you leave me to say?
I wish it was so easy and simple
But i guess its not
Tryna be on my lil wayne status so you can be something i forgot.
Somethings are really hard to cope with
I cant believe you puttin me through this shxt.
I dont get it!
Everything is right but you claim its wrong
But i can no longer hold on
So im saying So long cause im gone.




P.s Never make someone a priority when your just an option. sometimes you have to sit back and observe the picture before you can actually get the frame.

Just a New York girl.

So just when everything is going good & im situated I get a call im coming back to Ny. I met alot of people within my two weeks of school. Literally the whole school knew me and of me. They called me "New York". Coach Wheeler really looked forward to having me this season but things happen, and I have no choice on whether I can stay or not. Regardless of what, Im going to make the best of what comes my way and enjoy my senior year in New York. I guess im just a Nw York girl.


P.s Things happen for a reason even if you dont know that reason.

The better of Georgia.

Georgia is not as bad as I made it seem. Obviously I was a little home sick. Once you get use to the people and come off on the good foot, things flow. As i focus more on what it is I have to do things just come off better each day. I love it. The people are becoming more familiar with me but I guess its not really about them its about what I need to get done. Its just cool and the journey begins here. =] However i will be visiting New York occasionally. New Yorkers look out for me! Trust im coming up. Ga is live man! livin it up. Oh yeah i made varsity for the volleyball team =D.


P.S Dont spend time focusing on what you dont have. Appreciate what you do have, and run while you have the chance to. One life, live it to the fullest with no regrets.

Also shout out to my computer class, drama class and volleyball team. Might Mustangs! lol & of course Rage!

How things are in Georgia.

So far things is iight not better then New York though. Its experience but people out here are way to nosy but hey if they to nosy then why give an answer right? Guess it falls down on that person right? However classes out here suck! Who has only 4 classes that last 1 hour 15 min? Obviously out here. For all of this i could have stayed in New York but its too late now. Im out here already might as well make the best of it. ALSO! you have to pay for EVERYTHING out here, like damn just make black people look even worse! No mean to stereo type or anything. But yeah. I miss the good old city even though i use to be a country girl. At least out there in New York femals know they place out here they just test you until you literally beat the shxt out of them hopefully that dont happen with me =]. Im a cool individual and those who know me knows that. But yeah I'll keep you blog readers updated on my experience out here. =]

Ps. Dont let one bad day ruin your whole experience just because one day is ruined dont me they all are going to be ruined. Make the best of what you have.

You lied to me, Whether it was minor or major
I feel played but yet & still its my space I let yu invade.
I Feel like im trapped in a cave surrounded by a maze
& yet you watch me.
Its like yu cuttin me out of a picture Yu cropped me
You got me.
I let you run because i couldnt catch up
& like a volcano i slowly erupt.
Piece by piece and still you watch me.
Now i remember,
I remember why i hide when i see a rock
Because People like you.
When they get something good they take it for granted
But its my fault, im still floating
I never even landed.

A new beginning

Its two days until I leave for Georgia. Once again relocating & this time i can actually say im excited. Its great to get a new experience other then in New York. New York is cool and very convenient its just the people that sometimes make things more complicated. The people in the South are much more friendly then us out here in the North. I can't wait to get a taste of what experience challenges and obstacles await me in Georgia. I will make the best of what ever come my way and definitly hope to come back with a D1 schlarship =]. Success, change and a new beginning awaits me.


P.s If you get a great opportunity to take, take it and run with it.

Relationships is what you make em.

Relationships are sometimes hard to maintain
One can be a page ahead
& there emotions aren't the same.
Those around you is who
you try to entertain
Though your relationship is hard to maintain.
Dont only observe the frame
Observe the whole picture.
They say love is pain
BUt when you become blind to what matters
You go insane because thats
When the picture can no longer fit the frame
you feel the pain,
And Have no umbrella for the rain.
Ok some have to much pride
But that dont mean cause the last did it
When yu see a rock you have to hide.
Not everyone is the same.
And as long as you two are in it together
The special bond will remain.

P.s People fail to realize a relationship is what you make it. Not others around you. Remember not everyone wants to see people happy specially when they want that one they cant have. Its what you make it real talk.

smile even when you dont want to

One's failure is anothers sucess
Emphasize yourself like colors
Stand out from the rest

Gloomy days turns skies gray
Cloud fade away and rain will
Hit the window

Friends, Significant others will hurt you
Decisions will leave you torn
People will lead you on
And those you thought were close to you will be gone.
There will be days you wont know what to do
But you have to smile even when you dont want to.

Grades will drop
Self esteem may too
Dont let peer pressure disguise you.
Another day you wont know what to do just
Remember smile even when you dont want to.

They'll laugh and smile in your face
Bring you memories and pain that cant be erased
You'll go through a phase
Where you dont know whether to stay
And the rain wont go away.
A phase where you dont know what to do
Just smile even when you dont want to.

P.s Never let anyone see you sweat. Thats exactly what they want.

dad you disappoint me

Dad are you leaving my life
once more
Its been months
and still no call
Did you tell me things i wanted to hear
Knowing that you really dont care?
Dad. . .
Why do you lie?
When you lie, it makes me cry
Bringing tears to my eyes.
And you didnt bother to watch me grow up
17 years and now your here?
When i needed you
you wasnt there
And now in my heart
I fear. . .
All of a sudden You reappear
Keep hurting my heart
Like its some dare.
You said you'll be there
You're a phone call away
I dont even know what to say
You kidnapped me when i was two
And still i barely even know you.
I let you get to my head
But when i look at you
It seems as if your dead.
Dad, you disappoint me. .