The problem is maybe Im doing to much,
Always giving my all but still its never enough.
You see these people never appreciate shxt
until its gone,
But when you decide to leave you considered dead wrong.
This is why I say, you cant always think with your heart
You gotta think with your mind, because people will
take it to their advantage because your being to kind

Its Just not that simple

When things are falling off
When life seems unfair
You walk around with your head down
&; still they dont care.

When your other is forcing you down a bit
You wanna walk out but yu cant quit.
The door is open waiting for you to walk out.
Waiting for pain to turn pleasure inside out.

When things change and theres rain
Consequence of struggle got you going in sane
Of course there will be pain, causing the feeling of change
& that feeling of doubt will secretly remain

You tell them things they wanna hear
& they'll think they see things clear,
but truth is they are no where near.

You'll pull off the smile because its one best disguise
But I'll be able to see the hidden pain within your eyes.
I will be the one who will understand
Bc even I say smile when you dont want to
But I understand its not that simple.

P.S I always use words and phrases to cheer me up knowing its not that simple yet I still find my way around
the complications. You just gotta find that feeling deep within you and better it.- Spencer

The beginning of Something new.

Pouring my emotions on this page

Trying to get your eyes to find,

The hidden message within, that im trying to provide.

Distance, means so little

Because my emotions and you, mean so much more.

& even though were drowning i'll lead our way to shore.

They'll try to put you under the influence 

by getting you high, filling your mind with lies.

But im telling you we have no limit

our high is beyond these skies.

I cant determine my future because tomorrow isn't promised, 

But as my future approaches, I can only remain honest.

Honest to you and myself, because today determines tomorrow. 

I will lead you not towards hunger and pain causing days of endless rain

but towards the happiness you never completely framed.

I can be your god, Just believe I will not mislead.

We will stick together you'll be my butter and i'll be your cheese.
Sometimes you have to make everyone else fade into the background, 
If not then look at whats going on now.
I may not completely understand, 
But here I am still offering not only my heart but my hand.
& when it comes to our future im pretty sure god has it planned.
So here's what im trying to say.
The rain cant wash me away, 
The sun cant shine to bright
Im willing to stay on this flight cause every emotion you give off
is only right &
Even though its dark we'll find our way to the light.
Stress comes too, but this is something were gonna get through
Just smile even when you dont want too, 
Im telling you this is the beginning of something new.


P.s You have to learn to forget somethings it doesnt mean your weak it means your strong 
& because you've found flaws in that thing, your only trying to get around that flaw to make 
that situation better. - S P E N C E R.

Im just saying

Look no one can tell you who to be with, who to like, or who to fall in love with,
People cant tell you whats right or wrong, because everyone is entitled to there own
opinion regardless. People are gonna believe what they wanna believe at the
end of the day so why waste your breath sometimes?
I mean, Im just saying.

S p e n c  e  r

Life is too short so kiss slowly, forgive quickly, forget the past, but remember what it taught you...the U.S. constitution doesn’t gurantee happiness, only the PURSUIT of it...yu have to catch up with the rest of it yourself..XXII

Happy New Year Welcome 2010

As i reflect on 2009,

I've realized i made mistakes had doubts 

got hurt, and there were people who was a waste of time

as well as worth it.

I realized things happen for a reason even if we 

dont know what that reason may be, good or bad.

However, Just because its a new year it doesnt mean theres a new me

I will remain the same me, but theres always room for improvement because

there's flaws in everything, whether we notice it or not. 

Same book, different chapter.

Same people, with more to come and go.

Starting the new year off with a special some one and hopefully we 

stick it out, beyond the years yet to come. 

But Happy new year everyone and may god open new doors and opportunities for everyone.

P.S My writing will improve I can guarantee that !